Crumpled Notebook

Went speed dating Thursday night. Had a good time. Met some interesting/cool people. It’s always fun. Anyway, ask about it if you want cause I probably won’t blog about any of the dates I go on from it (if I go on any).

Here the video from one of my old pranks. Put it on Youtube too. Don’t worry, my prank victim (which you’ll notice is the same person) is a good sport!

Yeah…anyone want to take a guess who’s name is on that stapler? Not mine, that is fo’ sho’ .

I get so discouraged sometimes. I went out to a Sunday evening service at one of those “super churches” in our community. I didn’t end up staying because although when I went in, people were standing around the door within 5 feet or less of me, the entire time I was in there, no one spoke or acknowledged my presence. Now, I’m the first person to admit that I can’t just walk into a room and start up conversations with people. But seriously, out of the 20 people in the room, no one can say anything to me? I’ve had similar experiences at other churches here, usually larger churches since they are the only ones that seem to have a younger generation type service in the evenings. The other wasn’t quiet as bad. I actually like their services and their preacher, but of the several times I went over the course of several months, I can count exactly 1 conversation I had with anyone outside of “hi” during the welcome time. These places just aren’t very welcoming for anyone who has the slightest problem meeting people. Especially people who go in without knowing anyone else there.

The sad thing is that my main purpose for going is to meet people. I enjoy my morning church service. I wish I had a Bible study or something to go to with people my age, but I’d settle for other Christian friends, as I don’t really have a lot of them (most of my friends out here are not Christian).

It’s just frustrating, disappointing and discouraging. Maybe I expect too much. Maybe I’m used to my church jumping every time a new person walks through the door because one extra person really DOES make a difference when your church is small. Don’t get me wrong about the churches I’ve tried. I’ve seen some great things they do. I’m just saying that I think going into them, a bit outside of what everyone else is, or with someone else, when you’re not the outgoing person, is hard.

So, anyone got any ideas? I’m going crazy and am to the point of giving up.

I’m not sure I’ve ever been so bored in my life as I have been tonight. Don’t get me wrong, I’m loving the 4 day weekend and definitely needed the time away from work. I’m just going stir crazy. No one is around to hang out with. And there is just nothing to do in this place after 6pm. I’ve ate 3 full meals today, all cooked by me. I’ve done approximately 6 loads of laundry since yesterday. I went to the beach and took pictures. I went to the grocery. I watched Clue. I even watched some football today. But it’s just after 7pm on Saturday night and I’m bored out of my head.

I thought about going out to like a sports bar tonight and seeing if the UK game or some other interesting basketball game was on. But, I’ve already eaten and I don’t drink, so what am I going to do…pay $2 for a soda and sit there all night by myself?

I don’t want to start reading any books because come Monday, my life is going to be so busy for the next 4-5 weeks, I won’t have time to finish.

I think I’m gonna start taking some digital media classes in the spring…I just hope I don’t die from boredom before then. I need to find myself a life outside of work.